urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eubacteria <3 <3 2008-11-12T13:23:37Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eubacteria:46233 2008-11-12T13:23:37Z 2008-11-12T13:23:37Z <p align="justify"><small>Life is better than it has ever been. Things are truely looking up for me.<br /><br />My cruise payment is due on December 9th. It's coming up so fast! Jim and I just booked our excursions. We're going to swim with the stingrays on Stingray Island in the Grand Caymen (I already did that and it was amazing, so I want him to do it!) We're going to drive a dune buggy up into the jungle of Jamaica. And we're going to go on a clear kayack tour and then a private beach and drinks in Mexico, and then of course the bar! Ah, I'm so excited.<br /><br />I picked my spring '09 courses. I will have my associates in Biology by the end of this year (after taking two summer courses). I applied at Jefferson, UPenn, Temple, and Hannaman to get my bachelors and then continue on to medical school. I'm really excited to start there and get my life going.<br /><br />I love my boyfriend a lot. It's hard to believe it's been two and a half years, already. After Keith fucked me over I didn't think I was going to find someone else, ha. It's almost funny looking back, but in the moment it was crazy real. I hate people who are like "I love you," "I want to be with you forever," etc etc after two weeks of being together, but from the time I was 14 until I was 17, we grew up together. His family was my family, etc. I'm not sure if I regret this but I don't think of him much anymore. I guess I hope he's happy but Jim and I are perfect for eachother and I'm happier than ever. I hope one day Keith can mature enough to be friends since he was a big part of my life, but I'm not sure if that will happen. He got in touch with me and told me he quit the band to go to school and work, maybe that's step one. Regardless of any of this I am happy where I'm at, and I wouldn't change a thing.<br /><br />I have a 95% in english. CRAZY. I hate english, I am not an english person at all. Of course I'm literate but I hate writing papers. I am a math and science person all the way. But needless to say I am happy with that grade.<br /><br />Okay this was my once in a blue moon update on things. Maybe I'll start writing in here more, who knows. But for now, I'm off to class and then the gym.<br /><br /><br /><br />PS. I think I'm comma-happy when I write. There is no need for that many commas, haha. I write how I talk. That's like the number one rule on writing, DON'T do that. :)</small> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eubacteria:41741 2008-01-16T05:38:04Z 2008-10-29T12:17:40Z Changing back to this journal.<br /><br /><br /><p align="justify">I read the last couple entries I wrote on here. Shit's mad different. Keith and I are not together anymore. We broke up in May of 2006. I met a boy named Jim in July. We started dating in August of 2006, and have been together ever since. Amanda and I are closer than ever, and we've been through alot since I last wrote in here. Met lots of new people, distanced myself from others. Finished my first semester at college, got the supervisor position at my job, etc. Everything's going pretty well at the moment. I want a really tight group of girlie friends. With Mizz, of course! :)<br /><br />I'll keep this updated now. And I'll post some pictures soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eubacteria:24961 2006-04-20T03:19:03Z 2006-04-20T03:19:03Z <p align="justify">love is real. it's not just in novels or the movies. it is fact. and it's standing here right in front of you. so if you open your eyes, oh what a sweet discovery. there is hope, and there is joy, and there is acceptance. so now let all of the light that collects on your plants keep you warm, make you smile. and i will be there with this pen in my hand to record all the while. you'll be laughing so loud, that the house would shake with sound, and everything will be as new as the day it was found.<br /><br />love is real. it's not just in long distance commercials, or something that you thought you felt back in high school. so i will turn black and white; become that horoscope you're reading. it predicts something good is on its way, oh, and then i will send you the world green and blue, in a box through the mail. you can open it up, hold it right in your hand, and be glad that it's there. and be glad that you're there. now, you can feel all the knots in your stomach start to untie, and suddenly it's not so hard to say you're all right.<br /><br />love is real. it's not just in poetry and stories. it is truth, and it will follow you everywhere you go from now on. so if you'd just cast off your doubt, then your lips would answer for you. oh my darling, when you smile, it is like a song. and i can hear it now, yes i can hear it now.</p><br /><br /><br />&hearts; &hearts; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eubacteria:18808 2006-02-15T04:18:06Z 2008-10-29T12:18:43Z <center><a name="cutid1"></a></center><br /><b>Mine and Keith's third Valentine's Day together. He wrote this to me :)</b><br /><br /><i>"Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen<br /><br />Hi.<br /><br />For Valentines Day here’s a small list of all the things I love about you:<br /><br />I love how we’re comfortable enough with each other to act ways we wouldn’t in front of anybody else.<br />I love how happy you are when you get something right on very rare occasions.<br />I love how whenever I know you’re at my door I can’t help but smile even though I knew you were coming over beforehand.<br />I love the way you get scared in the middle of horror movies and make me shut them off until you’re brave enough to watch again.<br />I love the way we wrestle after you realize I’m right about something, or just because you feel like wrestling.<br />I love how you hit me in your sleep and yell nonsense as I laugh, and then you wake up with no recollection at all.<br />I love the way you kiss.<br />I love our hugs, especially the one when we first walk down to the basement.<br />I love when we order a whole bunch of food and devour all of it by ourselves without getting embarrassed that we eat like fatties.<br />I love the way I can’t stay mad at you when you just act cute in the middle of our fights.<br />I love the future we already have planned out and how it not happening doesn’t even cross my mind.<br />I love that we have a kitty and everyone just knows it’s our child.<br /><br />The list keeps going, but most of all I just love you and how perfect you are for me."</i><br /><br />&hearts; &hearts; &hearts; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eubacteria:1565 2005-11-13T05:44:45Z 2008-10-29T12:18:19Z <p align="justify">I don't know where to start. I'm in the middle already. My hands are cold from typing, this room has no heat. Did we think it was life changing when I picked it up off the shelf? How about when you held it in your hand on the way home? What about when you put it in and we layed down? How did so much of our thoughts and desires change in such a short amount of time? Why can one person take something so negatively and one the complete opposite? I don't know what to say. I knew I'd write it all down, but I never said I knew what it was going to say. There's too much. Too many points of importance, too much that happened tonight, too big of changes for me to think straight. She had blue hair, and I have blonde chunks. Both of us always talk. Both of us know what we want to say but it doesn't come out right. Both of us learned a great deal from the boy in our lives. Both of us were in love. She wanted him gone, I never could fathom losing you. God never stopped you in June. God never stopped us all summer. God sat there and watched me ruin the rest of my life with a stupid mistake that I wish I could take back with everything I am. But here we are. God didn't stop you from loving me. God didn't stop me from coming back. We're here for a reason. Tonight happened for a reason, and you let me cry on your shoulder for a reason. I've never met anyone who deals with things the way you do. How can one person listen to someone complain about things that haven't even happened yet, and know how upset she is, and somehow just make her smile? Just let her know things will be okay? I didn't think it was possible. At least, I never thought it would be for me. I was 14. Name everyone you know who has found the person they want to share their life with at that age. I found it. Why am I lucky? What made me deserve someone who could easily solve thousands of people's problems with probably just one sentence? Why are you here? Why am I the one for you? What do you see in me after all I've done to you? I'm grateful, believe me. I know not everyone finds this. I know people die lonely. But now I know I never will. Now I know I found love and I'll have these memories forever. And you know what, you're right, we did make plans for our future. And you're right about us keeping them, too. There's nothing I could say or do to make up for what you've done for me. You're the strongest person I know. I forget why I'm writing this.</p><center><br /><i>"Why is it we've been thinking and saying the same things?"</i></center><p align="justify"><br />Is it a stretch to say we're soulmates? I love you.